On the Platform
It started with his walking her home from church.
Obviously, it didn’t start there, there must have been something before. Physical at that point: he liked her soft grey eyes and slightly breathy voice. He offered to walk her back, and she acquiesced. When they got near to her house she said stop here and he asked her why. I’m just around the corner, she said, and scuttled off.
Things went on like that. People see us leaving church, he said. She shrugged. They took to spending a few minutes on a park bench on the way to chat. Both signed up for a Bible-study weekend away in a converted country house. She wouldn’t sit with him on the coach but once they got there, came to find him at dinner. They joked about it being like an Agatha Christie. After the prayer meeting she said she was tired but he urged her to come out onto the terrace. There was a little summer-house just visible across the lawn in the gloom. It smelt of cigarettes inside, the cooks probably used it, but they opened the doors wide to let the breeze through. They went there the next night too, found some blankets and settled on the broken sofa. She told him about the man her parents expected her to marry; older, a family friend. Do you love him? I suppose so, she answered. Yes, of course. They laced their fingers together and he stroked her arm. How does he make you feel? She sighed and nestled into his shoulder. I don’t know.
She got four As and a place at a top university; he got a college place in a nearby town, and they wrote. He had a thing going with the college’s star athlete, in secret. It was furtive, late-night, one-way: a quiet rap on his door and the guy would come in. He wasn’t allowed to make any move himself but there was a lot of pleasure in it, he let it happen. When she had a study week he went to see her. He wrote saying what time his train would come in and she was there on the platform, stood on tip-toe to kiss him, took him to her room; to both of their surprise they went to bed. Afterwards they couldn’t speak, just lay face to face with their arms round each other. The next day she showed him a letter from her fiancé, all about the house he was buying. Look, she said, he’s asked me what kind of car I’d like. What’s that, he replied. A Mini Mayfair, she said, decidedly. I just think they’re lovely.
Now he opens his eyes, checks the time again, and his texts. In four minutes he will meet a grown-up, and newly-orphaned, daughter. They have swapped messages for weeks; she was surprised to learn that he had a husband, but not put off. He is thinking about the colour of her eyes.
Geoff Sawers (he, him) is the author of several books including a collection of linked short stories, Friends of Friends (Diehard, 2024). He is a full-time parent and lives in Reading, UK.