Betting on Cats
Sometimes I just want to snarl. I want to walk around with it on my face like a dare, like a threat. What the fuck are you looking at? Resentment compounds with reflection. The ghosts running the show must hate my guts. No, I’m not walking around in camo-wear, that’s not how I roll. I’ve always maintained a sense of style, even through times of extreme stress and want like the present moment. This explains my sharpness, my anger. Who isn’t angry these days? “Arturo,” I ask my landlord, “are you angry?” He sucks on his unlit cigarillo and says, “Why angry? Life is beautiful. Only stupid people are angry.” I guess that shuts my trap for the moment, eh. I move on to other people who might commiserate with my current state of mind. “You’re suffering from malaise,” says Brico, a poker acquaintance with a psychology background, though he works in finance now. He rarely says anything stupid, unlike the rest of our poker crew, myself included. I am always babbling like a fool. I can’t help myself. My shut up button doesn’t work. I’m fucked. I don’t know what’s up, I don’t know what’s down. “Are you nuts?” exclaims my bookie Dom for betting exclusively on cats. “You know me, Dom,” I say. “I try to make gambling seem more fun than it is.” He smiles like a man who immensely enjoys his vocation and all the interesting people he gets to meet in its pursuit. “Nevertheless, you owe me four large,” he says. “That’s a long bus trip,” I say. The big cats had been doing well until then. The Lions, the Jaguars, the Panthers. But the last Sabbath and its partisan philistines had summarily declawed them. How in the world will I generate four large? “Time and dispersement restraints don’t permit me to cut you any slack this time,” Dom confesses without looking at me as he speaks. Rather, he fusses with a button on his sports coat cuff. “There were a lot of injuries,” I say. Dom smiles again. “Do you mean there will be a lot of injuries?” he says, stifling a laugh. Yeah, funny Dom. I’m with you on this. Lockstep. “See you later?” he says. “You bet,” I say. “No,” he says, “you bet. Haha.” With that, I plunge a serrated dagger in his throat and rip it open. He clutches his gashed throat as blood jets out between his fingers, his eyes rolling back, a silent scream twisting his face. “Everything okay?” Dom asks, frowning at me. I smile, pocketing my ghost dagger. “Yeah, all good, Dom.”
Salvatore Difalco’s work has appeared in a number of print and online formats. He lives in Toronto.