Postcards from the Knife-Thrower
May 21-22 Portland, OR
Today I tore a shirt in the Lion Tamer’s tent, said he’d ask
his wife to mend it, as if I live on an island and no woman
will ever touch me again. I’ve colored outside the lines so often
they’re no longer visible in the light of a sober day.
St. Jezebel knows I keep a lock of Magdalena’s hair to remind me
of despair, knows what I want; every twist is planned except the end.
The end is mine but I lack imagination, the balls
to divine anything between flickers of silent movie frames
in a dream that isn’t; I have knowingly unmade myself
into a man I don’t recognize. Don’t want to, need to
until I’m drunk enough to catch glimpses of the girl you were;
mouthing private devotions and absolution for all creation.
Alex Stolis lives in Minneapolis; he has had poems published in numerous journals. The full-length collection, Postcards from the Knife-Thrower was runner up for the Moon City Poetry Prize in 2017. Two full length collections Pop. 1280, and John Berryman Died Here were released by Cyberwit and available on Amazon. His work has previously appeared or is forthcoming in Piker’s Press, Jasper’s Folly Poetry Journal, One Art Poetry, Black Moon Magazine, and Star 82 Review. His chapbook Postcards from the Knife-Thrower’s Wife is forthcoming from Louisiana Literature Press in 2024. He has been nominated multiple times for the Pushcart Prize.