I Stopped Getting Better

_____After “I Stopped Going To Therapy”
_____by Clementine von Radics

I stopped getting better.
I’m not sure it’s worth it.
Never one to seek numinosity,
the process to wholeness
bores me. When I daydream,
I picture myself in a bar with no windows
hidden from a sunny afternoon,
slowly fading into oblivion,
holding on by a thin white line.
I have sewn myself together
by my wrongs and my wounds.
I remain ambivalent, grass forever blue.

Lucy Jayes has fostered a love of writing since she was old enough to hold a pen. She graduated with a degree in English Literature from the University of Kentucky in 2014. During college, she interned for Ace Weekly magazine with a primary focus on covering local events and happenings in the food and beverage industry in Lexington. Upon graduating, she moved to Denver, CO and worked in nonprofit fundraising and event planning and as a conference manager and journalist for a trade magazine covering the legal cannabis industry. She is a first-year MFA student at the University of Kentucky and focused on Creative Nonfiction writing.